Synchronization of Us

Just like it says some pics of my niece Courtney and the girls

I had a few other shots that i was trying to decide between for bsm this week ,mostly of my niece Courtney but for some reason kept coming back to this one. I just love the pov on it i guess, i was outside the playhouse peeking through the window.

Home of Best Shot Monday is Picture This although im not 100% sure if its running this week - pop along and check it out anyways its a great site.

Its 8.45am here just now, for most people morning has not long started but for me its only about an hour away from one of my favorite parts of the day - naptime

In the meanwhile i will clean (or ehh blog) while Rebecca climbs in and out of Eilidhs high chair giving me a heart attack each time, guess its better than jumping from the couch to a table as she was doing earlier this morning.
She is currently naked (and now getting very upset because she wants an apple and we have none) having decided it was a great idea to do the toilet on her freshly ironed dress (that had not even made it on her yet - ohh and she now just peed on the high chair sigh). If course when i put the wet dress for washing she threw a good old tantrum because that was the dress she wanted to wear and not the silly short set that i pulled out to replace it (because it doest need ironed, thankfully) . A few minutes later in a attempt to cheer herself up she went for a snack , well as its shopping day tomorrow we are low on everything and she decided a pack of dried Broad beans was just what she always wanted - another lovely tantrum follows. Have i mentioned the fit she threw when i wouldn’t get stroller from the end room so she could play in it? No lets leave that one then.

So at this moment in time she is sitting in the highchair (tray removed where the pee was) eating leftover boiled egg (from lunch yesterday, must have escaped the cleaning somehow) while Eilidh moans and eats cheerios of the floor asking for dada. Can naptime just come a little sooner today please?

Finally my new layout is almost complete, i have been wanting to personalise my blog for ages now but i could never seem to find time for it. Its caused me headache after headache but i think im finally happy with it. A few changes regarding links and such still need completed but thankfully for the most part im done.

Heading of to bed now to finish the wonderful Ivy Chronicles and get what i hope will be a lovely full nights sleep (although not over the separation problem Eilidh is thankfully sleeping all night again)

Night

We are always told that one day we will have to let our children go - but when must that be. When they marry and have children? When they spend their first night out with friends? When they start school? . Part of me feels its each of those things and each day is bringing me closer to the day she is no longer truly mine , will they really be a time she no longer breastfeeds and falls asleep in my arms? Will i wake up a morning without her sweet face beside me ?

I have been really trying to let Rebecca have her Independence , for months now we stayed behind her when out at parks or play areas watching her every move. Now we try to let her go and do her own thing, i check on her constantly and worry every second she is not in my sight but i know she is just having fun . To see her smile and pride as she reaches the highest height is just amazing. In just over 3 weeks she will take a major step towards true Independence with her first day at Playgroup . Its two afternoons a week from 12.30 to 2.45 , i have not worked since she was born and she has never been in nursery - we have spent little time apart and the thought of leaving her is killing me. I know it will be great for her, she can be so shy and quiet and i imagine being around other children her own age will be just what she needs. It will also give me and Eilidh some one on one time a few times a week which is the one thing im really looking forward to as we rarely get it. The playgroup is a 2 minutes walk from my house and there so parent friendly and do anything they can to help the child adapt - parents are required to do “duty” every few weeks which actually sounds kinda fun.

Today she also took another big step towards another kind of Independence - that without nappies. We have been letting her sit and get use to the potty and toilet and while she seems to like the idea we were having no luck (apart for occasionally catching something) , this morning not *once* but *twice* did she go poo-poo on the potty. I think she may not have control over her bladder yet as she seems to get upset when she goes and always cries after it (when not going in her nappy) but the fact she is pooing in the potty shows she understands what she is meant to be doing.

This time next year we will be getting ready for her starting nursery , its so bittersweet.

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As said before life is kinda blah just now, nothing really amazing going on although the weather has perked up the last few days so just maybe summer is arriving in Scotland at last. As I’m sure most of you have i have been busy the last few days reading the last Harry Potter ,as i only started reading the series a few months back it was the first one i read at the same time as others. What did i think of DH - LOVED IT , for me it was a wonderful and satisfying ending although i didn’t really need the last chapter .
I feel i have barely anytime on the computer at the moment, I’m trying to finally sort
all my pictures out properly - quick edits and upload to my new flikr pro account (Big Thanks to the staff at Flickr for the free gift due to payment problems with the UK) . Between than , replying to emails and reading blogs i have no time LOL.

The girls are doing well as usual, Eilidh still doing this separation anxiety thing and not sleeping the greatest (of course she slept through fine one night then not the next grr) BUT each day she does get a little closer to walking and loves to walk about holding just one of our hands, she stands by herself all the time (but the minute she knows she is doing it falls of course). She is such a talkative thing and along with the constant shouts of mummy are dada , babas (which may or may not mean Becca) and her latest Hiya.
Rebecca seems to be changing every day just now, she is so funny and has an opinion about everything. She seems to have rules for everything (such as must have two yoghurt’s, ice poles etc..) and hates change of routine. Her speech while not clear is expanding - my favorite of late is when she was sitting (like a big girl - on our couch to save for mess) eating a yogurt and watching tellytubbies on tv . DH and i started talking and every so politely told us to shhh , how nice :).
We recently swapped out toys around (keep two big toy boxes under Eilidhs cot and swap them with the ones out for them to play with every couple of months)and she is loving any sort of shape sorters, she is so good at them and the other day was searching around everywhere looking for the “angle , angle ,angle” (Otherwise known as the triangle) , she is definitely starting to understand colours,shapes and numbers but will only demonstrate when she is in the mood.

Im thinking at least a small part of my problem may be wanting another child, crazy i know and just now is so not the right time. BUT its on my mind alot, Rebecca was the same age Eilidh is now when i got pregnant again and i think the age difference between them is wonderful . Every time someone announces a pregnancy while i am truefully happy for them im extremely jealous also, i do love my girls and if that’s all im every blessed with i will still be so lucky but it doest seem to stop the yearning.

I had the perfect shoot chosen for today, we took a family trip to the park and i got a lovely one of Rebecca and her daddy. Of course my memory card decided to act screwy again and i lost the majority of the pictures and videos on it (going to try and phone about it tomorrow) . I decided instead to go with this one, i just love how Eilidh looks in it. Isn’t she just adorable? Im so lucky to have both Rebecca and her in my life

Im sorry i have not been posting much, i have been in a bit of a funk lately - bored i guess and really have nothing to report - unless you guys want to hear me moaning day in and day out.

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Eilidh is driving me crazy at the moment, i almost feel like my sweet natured, happy little bundle of energy has been replaced with a crabby, clingy alien.
Her sleep is becoming a bit of a nightmare , ok still not nearly as bad as Rebecca but has been waking up once around 1-ish the last week. Its getting her to sleep that’s the problem - ok change that she has just woke again for the third time in less than two hours. She is waking up and SCREAMING , she goes from nothing to complete hysterics in seconds, she is getting up earlier and earlier each morning and only napping for about 30 minutes some mornings - some days she is not taken an afternoon nap at all and when she does its very short 15 minutes or so.
I could maybe cope with this is she was ok while awake but for the most part she is just as fussy and clingy, if i so much as step out of her field of vision she just breaks down and i hear nothing but screams or shouting mummy all day from her.
I don’t think its teething or another illness as physically she seems fine, im
thinking it may be Separation Anxiety - Rebecca never really went through it so im not sure but it does fit all the symptoms.
Im so tired and stressed over this all just now, i had a party i was going to on Friday - something i have been looking forward to for months and im going to have to cancel. I just want my happy little girl back