Synchronization of Us

I took alot of pictures this week, quite a few i loved but i feel this one was my best shot of the week. Its not a perfect picture but just looking at it made me feel like i was looking at Rebecca through Eilidhs eyes - She is just standing there watching her crazy big sister jump and run around, Rebecca is a blur to her - always moving and always going and everything she wants to be.

I took a similar type one a few moments later this time of Rebecca watching her cousin - does she look at Courtney the way Eilidh looks at her?

Head over to Picture This for some wonderful shots of the week

On a unrelated note, Eilidh is driving me crazy - she is getting better at walking each day (although wouldn’t actually say she was walking yet) but is already getting into everything. She climbs on everything , tries to walk in the bath and destroys everything she sees. I love her but im not sure how much im looking forward to the toddler years.

I was tagged by Julie for this meme a few weeks back but completely forgot about it till Christina done hers . I dome something similar a few months back so decided to give this one my own twist - a pregnancy/parenting related 8 things about me.

First the rules:
-We have to post these rules before we give you the facts.

-Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
-People who are tagged write their own blog post about their eight things and include these rules.
- At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged and that they should read your blog.
-Eight is a magic number. Not three.

And now for my facts:

1) I was never the person who dreamed of becoming a mother growing up, i did love the idea of pregnancy though and thoughts of being a surrogate. I still like the idea but as my first pregnancy was so difficult doubt its something i will ever do

2) The first moment i thought i may be pregnant with Rebecca was when out for lunch. I was 4 days late but it never occurred to me till sitting down eating a burger - it just popped in my head and i obsessed about it all weekend before telling DH.

3) Despite two positive home tests and a bucket load of symptoms we still didn’t believe it till we got the doctors results - and then told our families.

4) I always swore i would never give my children a dummy , i hate them and thing they look so ugly - then Rebecca came along and wouldn’t settle when not sucking. I also swore she would be off it by her first birthday but two years down the line its still around.

5) My parenting style was going to be prefect, no junk at all - no tv - non stop educational and interesting stuff from noon to night. I always thought bad of parents for not doing these things , then i realised that me being perfect was not whats best for the kids. They need a little fun stuff in there lives.

6) I LOVE co-sleeping with Rebecca and really wish Eilidh would sleep with us to, i spend many nights curling upto Rebecca with a tear in my eyes.

7) I could never understand how people could not know exactly how old there child was , i could always tell you how old Rebecca was (in weeks) . Then Eilidh came along and i only ever knew months. I never believed it when people would say i would be more relaxed second time around. I still have no desire to leave my children though.

Im slightly obsessed by breastfeeding and honestly cannot understand why everyone able to doest at least give it ago . I get so worked up at the sight of a baby getting a bottle but am trying to be more understanding these days. Im not sure when i will wean my girls but secretly (or not so much anymore) love the idea of feeding till there 4/5

So there it is, im not tagging anyone as everyone seems to have done it already - but
feel free to steal it if you fancy (parenting related or not)

I imagine today was a fun day for the girls, we attended a 2 year old birthday party and filled up on junk. Rebecca managed to inherit a old slide of theres (a small indoor one) which i imagine will thrill her tomorrow when it gets here. She is
getting better around other kids, maybe not interacting but at least playing along side - that an improvement.
It was then home to an afternoon of playing with Courtney and Auntie Stephanie and Uncle Graeme (DHs brother is staying the weekend). I snapped this fun picture of Eilidh at some point, just love the way she is lying . Enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got a couple of other cute ones when playing about with burst more, Rebecca is jumping on the bed and all out of focus and Eilidh is at the bottom of the bed in focus just watching. I almost feel like your looking at Rebecca through her eyes - busy and crazy and what she wants to be . Im saving these for my best shot of the week .

Today was my wonderful nieces first day of school, she looks so grown up and cute in her School uniform. I cannot believe how quick she has grown, it seems like just yesterday i was coming home from Canada because i didn’t want to miss her growing up.
She has done so well and we are all so proud of her.

A couple of pics before leaving

Some on the way

And in her class

Overall i took way to many pictures, if you want to see more check out
Flickr

Yesterday Eilidh turned 9 months old, i cannot get over how my baby has went from this

to this

She is such a smart, energetic wonderful child who makes life so intersting.
She is “talking” saying Mummy, Daddy, Be-Ha (Becca), Boo ,Hiya and has said Nana now and then
She has more or less moved to just one morning nap a day and sleeps all night.
She eats 100% table food and drinks loads from a sippy but still loves her milkies.
She is always on the move and is now officially a climber.

Her biggest milestone this week has been walking, that’s right she is just about there. She is taken 5/6 steps on her own and gets herself into the standing position (not pulling up ) all the time, im guessing just a few days till she is really off.
Im terrified but so excited over it. I managed to get a quick video of her doing it, not to great but the best i could manage.

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Ohh and her sister is finally tall enough to open our doors, was not looking forward to that.

I have always enjoyed photography - not in a want to go professional type of way but i just enjoyed the creating memories. Its only been the last few months though that i started to understand it a little more , its not all about a nice pretty shot showing a smiling child’s face. I have began to understand a good picture should be telling us something and that can be shots of many different things.

Lately i have been going through my pictures and sorting them out. Doing some slights edits and getting rid of duds before uploading to Flickr, the other night i came across this one of Rebecca from September of last year.

I have seen it before but never really noticed it i guess, i just love the angle - i love the look on her face and the clasp in her hair. Its almost a year old now to not quite a best shot of the week but i still felt i wanted to use it.

I did think about using this shot

Its from the sleepover the other night and such a great shot of the grand kids but as i already posted in on the blog felt i had to go with something else.

Now go and visit Picture This for some amazing best shots

As a parent we do everything in our power to keep out child happy. We go to them when they cry , feed them when hungry and comfort them when hurt. One of the hardest things i have found as a mother of two is its not always that simple, occasions arise where i have to decided between my children - which girl is more in need of mummy at the moment. Being the youngest Eilidh seems to get the raw deal most of the time, Rebecca is bigger and alot of her “problems” would be easier to deal with .
I remember many horrible evenings when DH was working, i would try to settle Eilidh best i could before putting her in her swing and going to get Rebecca down. These were the early days and Eilidh would feed for hours in the evening, i honestly had no choice but to leave her crying while i dealt with her sister.
As she got older and started sleeping better these incidents became less frequent, i still have times when i put her down and think she is going to sleep and start to get Rebecca down - Eilidh starts crying shortly afterwards. Im not a believer in CIO, i swore its something i would never do and part of me still tries to believe that its something i have never done.

Last night was one of those evenings, both girls were rather restless but it was around 10-ish when Rebecca woke and wouldn’t settle again. Lying in bed with her was the only way she was going to go over so i got ready for bed and went to go to sleep. A few minutes after i heard Eilidh start to wake, she was getting more and more upset as i tried to slowly move myself away from Rebecca - i got away and took Eilidh in our sitting room, mere seconds later i heard Rebecca crying and staggering about trying to find me. I feed Eilidh as Rebecca (crying ) comes up and tries to curl up with us - she didn’t want to be there though and wouldn’t stop crying so Eilidh wouldn’t feed and started crying again.
Lost on what to do i made the horrible descion to put Eilidh back in her cot, i gave her her cuddly bears and put on her nightlight music toy and closed the door. Rebecca and i curled up in bed together. Eilidhs crying was heartbreaking, she got louder and louder and Rebecca couldn’t settle with the noise. I was almost in tears myself praying for DH to get home , i couldn’t seem to make either child happy.
In desperation i finally went and brought Eilidh into the bed, Becca on one side curled up and Eilidh on the other side. Finally both girls seemed happy and seeing both there eyes closing was wonderful.
So i lay there an angel in each arm and finally got to get some sleep

What followed was a bit of a bad night, followed by a horrible naptime (Becs took ages to go down then Eils woke just as she did) so tonight i am exhausted.
I do feel a little bad for DH regarding last night - he got home from work and noticed Eilidhs bedroom door was opened , he went to check and noticed she was not in her cot. He ran through to me in a panic - i can only imagine how scary that was.

I could use this blog post to whine about my tooth or cold, could say about Rebecca and her silly monster face behind mines and Dh back when i gave him a kiss or i could
thank the girls for sleeping wonderfully last night and both going for 3 hour naps today . But im not going to bother, instead will just share some cute pictures and videos

Eilidh Pushing Her Chair Around

Eilidh playing with her fave toy

Friday nights are dinner nights at my mums, this had happened for years now and i imagine will keep going for as long as it can. Normally we walk up, its not far and the exercise is good but today i have been feeling completely “funky” - its just a cold but i just couldn’t face the walk. We decided instead to get a bus , buses are pretty common around here BUT it has been years since i was last on one - between DHs driving and walking i have not really had a need. We took Eilidh in the pram and decided to let Rebecca walk - it was a fun little trip.

The walk to the bus stop

At the bus stop

On the bus

I bet you are all on the edge of your seats waiting for an update from me, did i survive a night with three children? Okay maybe nobody really cares that much .

Last night went so much better than i thought it would, Eilidh was sleeping as normal by 7 and the girls and i curled up in the living room to watch Happy Feet and eat popcorn. Well im not sure how much of Happy Feet any of us watched, i know about half way through i went and played with the laptop for a while . Rebecca and Courtney were playing silly game after silly game and i was so not needed. I know at one point Courtney was laying trails of popcorn that doggy Rebecca had to eat of the floor. Of course when it was done i made them get washed up and do there teeth again.
About 9.30 the evening started to wind down and Courtney was happy to curl up on the sofa to watch the end of the movie, Rebecca was so tired (she is normally sleeping for 7) but would go between cuddling up and running around.
10 o’clock came around and i took her through our bedroom to bed, she went straight to sleep. Courts followed about half an hour later.
I really wish i could of gotten a picture of the two of them but i was so scared of waken the girls up but gosh were they cute both curled up together in my bed. Courtney spent most of the night cuddled upto Rebecca.

All three girls slept wonderfully and were all up between 6.30 and 7 (a late start for me), a chaotic but fun morning followed and thankfully my girls took there naps perfectly today (while Courtney played quietly). We went about our normal Tuesday routine - lunch followed by food shopping. Now food shopping with a 2 and 4 year old running around was truly exhausting.
Courtney went home around 3 this afternoon and poor Rebecca was heartbroken - she cried for about 15 minutes and keep going to the window asking for “No-Nee”. I think she just adored having her cousin here and to be honest so did i, its so easy to get caught up in how much i love my daughters to remember how crazy i am about Courts.

My tooth is feeling slightly better today although still tender and eating is difficult, hopefully should be better tomorrow.