Cutting Back
Lately i have been feeling overwhelmed by everything. Honestly life is good, the girls are doing wonderful and the pregnancy is coming along great . There is so much happening between now and my due date that i dread each passing week and getting nearer to the end -at almost 16 weeks the half way mark is looming.
The kids are not giving me a moment, Eilidh is teething horribly and has got 3 molars in the last week - the past two nights she has spent the entire time screaming . She is talking up a storm just today she told me “i love woo” unprompted, kept tickling me and saying “tickle tickle” and handing me objects saying “there go” . She loves to say “Eilidh go” (as in out) and well really to much to list. Becca is Becca and also getting better and better with her speech, she has a hospital appointment Monday which terrifies me honestly (expect more on that on Monday) .
What it all boils down to is im on the go from all day long, Rebecca barely naps anymore (today is a rare occurance, and while i should be taking a nap myself i really wanted the free time) which leaves me with not a moment to myself . Non stop for about 13 hours
When the kids are down i am normally to exhausted to do much , most evenings i take a long hot bath then just collapse into bed. For weeks i have been stressing over my online activities , i watch my emails build up into the thousands and blog posts doubling each day. I miss a days blogging and feel nothing but guilt . Last night in a rare moment of clarity i came to the realization that it does not really matter, why am i stressing so much over everything?
This morning i unsubbed from over half my email groups , i went through my blogs and cut them down to just 52 (from over 100) . This is suppose to be a pleasure not a chore . As much as i hate to do it im trying to relieve myself from “commenting” guilt. I love to read and i love to comment, i hate reading a post and not saying anything about it . These days im just trying to realize its not always possible. I apologies for this but am still reading and enjoying your blogs .
Now it just leaves blogging , im going to try and blog guilt free but im not sure i can change much on this one, i love blogging and want to do it daily - its just finding the time thats a problem.
I need to remind myself that going a couple of days between posting is not wrong and i should not try and keep up with those bloggers who can blog daily.
So now while i have this rare nap time im going to read some of your wonderful blog posts, not feeling guilty for not commenting on each and every one 
March 27th, 2008 at 8:39 am
Don’t feel guilty! I’m a bad commenter too…I really try and comment on all the posts that I read, but I’m lucky if I can just READ them all before Ava needs something! I don’t think I could ever blog every day, my life isn’t that interesting!! I’m lucky to do it once a week!
March 27th, 2008 at 8:48 am
Leave the guilt behind- we all try to do the best we can but life, it gets in the way sometimes. I would post less but I get phone calls from irate family members if I miss a day!! Oh and some of the most popular bloggers only post a couple of days a week!
March 27th, 2008 at 9:36 am
Blogging is supposed to be fun, not a chore. You shouldn’t feel guilty at all! Glad everyone is doing well!
March 27th, 2008 at 11:12 am
I started lurking the moment I started blogging. I know it’s considered bad manners in the blog world but I’m older so I don’t feel guilt easily anymore :o) I agree with the commenter above. Blogging is supposed to be fun. And it’s why I never mind if people don’t comment on my blog. I can see how many people stop by through my site meter and that’s good enough for me. Take every spare second you have for YOU. Heaven knows you have your hands full. Relax for a bit :o)
March 27th, 2008 at 1:31 pm
Good for you, you go girl! You’re right, it should be fun, not a chore. So let go of the guilt and just do what you *want* to do. I’m going to cut back on my lit of blogs to read, roo.
March 27th, 2008 at 2:31 pm
You are totally silly, Laura. Don’t ever feel guilty. That would take the fun out of blogging. Enjoy it. And, take care of the girls and the new little blossom!
March 27th, 2008 at 8:03 pm
I can completely relate to your time crunch. Between my freelance work and caring for my daughter, I am so exhausted at the end of the day. And yet, I feel guilty when I can’t keep up with my favorite blogs, or write my own as much as I want to. Just remember that it’s your “real” life that comes first. That’s what I keep reminding myself, anyway!
March 27th, 2008 at 10:50 pm
Don’t feel guilty, I’m sure everyone will get over it lol. It wounds like you have one hectic life. Goodluck with everything and you blog looks great
March 28th, 2008 at 8:39 am
I can relate the overwhelming-ness of blogging sometimes. I should blog more…but it’s so much work sometimes, and I don’t always feel like I can really talk about what I’m really thinking about. I don’t want to cut down any of the blogs I read though; I love them all too much.
March 28th, 2008 at 10:12 am
I don’t read half as many blogs as you and can’t find the time to comment on all of them. I agree it’s for fun- not an obligation. Relax enjoy your pregnancy (is such a thing possible? lol) and don’t feel bad about not commenting or not posting everyday.