Today i woke for the first time in weeks feeling positive, for the longest time i have been letting worries get on top of me and its been effecting every aspect of my life. At the moment im not really wanting to expand but between worrying about money, DHs exams and what the hell he is going to do afterward and of course the ever expanding belly that was making me sad i have been feeling very down in the dumps.
There may be a light at the end of the tunnel regarding money and the future in general and i think i have finally realized that no matter what it will work out just fine, it always does.
Last night as i sat in front of the computer , for the first time this pregnancy i completely lost myself in thoughts of the baby . I was holding her (or him) closely and taking in every wonderful thing about her, i felt the excitement and the frustrations at it being so far away. For the first time i felt the wonder of pregnancy and the joy of what it will bring.
Thankfully during all this my children have been wonderful , now Eilidhs sleeping habits are driving me up the wall. Her 2 month long teething marathon has left her in the habit of getting up at night just a tad to much for my liking , some nights she sleeps greats and others nights seems to wake every hour or so. If DH was not always busy in the living room i don’t think i would be bothered in just the same way as i could curl up with her on the couch and sleep/feed that way but as it is i have to get out my warm bed to feed on the cold leather couch as he works across the room .
Although a few nights (such as last) i have refused to deal with her , burying myself in bed and just saying no . DH feels bad for her and ends up sleeping with her on the couch. Mean but shesh sometimes i just want him to take a turn no matter how busy he is.
Eilidh is growing up more and more by the day though and is constantly amazing everyone around her, im having to remind myself that she is not yet 18 months on a daily basis .
She is still building on her vocab and recent fave words are “Tickle” “Bye Bye” “Hiya” and “Sticker” , she uses mini sentences alot such as “Mummy done ” Becca Poo”
She is tells us when she has a dirty nappy, and actually alot of the times before she even goes .
Undressed herself like an expert (she needs to wear a onesie to bed every night as she has not yet figured how to get those buttons undone) and likes to try and dress herself.
Helps herself to fruit when she wants a bit (its on top of our dining table)
Is learning her shapes and knows Star and Circle although only points them out correct about 75% of the time , she loves song and dance and knows the actions/moves to plenty of songs . She can turn on the girls dance CD easily.
I know there is loads more but will spare you all even more mummy brag.
What about my other little monster? She is currently going through such a toddler “me” stage , fits and tantrums aplenty . Toilet training is still going on , she does well for a few days then wants back in nappies. We are not pushing either way just letting her take the lead. She may be coming down with a bug and has been slightly off all morning, she spent over an hour curled up on the couch watching “Wonder Pets” and then asked for lunch so im not sure whats going on.
Think this has got long enough, going to eat my lunch now (Cheese Sandwhich and Tomato soup strangly the same thing i have eaten almost every day since getting pregnancy and the only thing i can ever face)
So glad to hear you’re feeling better. I know how difficult it can be when a little one wakes in the night a lot. When Squidge was teething I would pick her up and just cuddle with her until she fell back to sleep. Once the teething was done I turned into uber-mean mummy. She would cry and cry and cry some more and I would let her. She got into the habit of cuddling and although I loooooved it I also knew no good would come of it. FINALLY she got the point and stopped waking up for a cuddle. It’s sooo hard to do what you know is right! I hope the sleeping gets back to normal soon. Oh and I’d love to read your half way mark post if you want to share the password with me.
I’m glad you’re feeling better. I understand what you’re feeling. The kind of limbo about not being sure of the future and really wanting to. Eilidh sounds like such a big girl! Little Elvis likes helping himself to whatever is in our fruit bin whenever we let him in the kitchen.
Glad to here you’re feeling better. The girls sound like they are both doing well for the most part. Now I want Tomato Soup and a Cheese Sandwich, ah well such is the life of a pregnant woman with cravings I guess. The power of suggestion or something like that. I’m off to search the pantry and see if I still have tomato soup in there or not. If not maybe I’ll do a grilled tomato and cheese sandwich..hmm that sounds really good maybe I’ll just make that instead.. Take care
I am SO glad you are feeling more optimistic and can see the light at the end of the tunnel! I always does work out in the end…but that doesn’t stop us from worrying!!! Eilidh is just amazing, such a clever girl! I think it’s good you took a couple nights off and had Craig deal with her!
I’m glad things are looking up for you! It’s always nice to see a light in the distance!
~blessings!
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