I have been in such a blah mood all day, all i could think was in so many hours i should of been getting my scan. Then of course it was i should of had it by now….
I know im being silly and there is much more important things in life but dammit i am a hormonal pregnant lady and i had been looking forward to this all week. I actually woke this morning feeling almost optimistic as they were not the only scanning place nearby just maybe someone else could squeeze me in today . Of course things rarely work out that well but i did manage to get an appointment for 10am Monday morning.
DH pointed out Monday may even be better, its the day before Rebecca’s surgery and instead of spending all day worrying will have that to look forward to and will hopefully be all happy and excited after finding out thus passing some time.
I don’t remember feeling this stressed about finding out the previous times , i do wonder if its because i feel this is the last? Every other time the sex didn’t matter as there would be another chance for the boy.
I guess that is what it boils down to , i would love a son. I would love to be the mother of a boy and discover all the joys that come with that. If the baby is a girl i will be thrilled, what more could i ask for than three little princesses ? There would be no disappointment in a girl but i would still have to mourn the little boy i will never have.
I’m just going to try and keep busy the next few days, the homebirth support group tomorrow and Courtney’s school fair (well Rebecca’s to as the playgroup is also trying to raise money for the end of term trip) on Saturday. Sunday is big clean day and Courts is coming for a sleepover so hopefully the time will pass quickly . Oh wait am i not wanting it to drag in as im dreading Tuesday?
Think im confusing myself now 
(Oh and to top off the day our freaking tv will not turn on, i wish i could be one of those people saying ah no big deal. But it is BIG DEAL AND I WANT MY TV BACK .
The end )
May 29th, 2008 1:44 pm
I am sorry you are so “blah” right now
I would be so upset too if the appt to find out boy/girl was cancelled. Hopefully things will pick up soon for you though and good things will come your way! 
May 29th, 2008 1:47 pm
I think it’s natural to hope for one sex or the other. And, I think most people are lying if they say the really don’t care. It’s okay to be hopeful, but the knowledge will help you bond more either way.
May 29th, 2008 4:25 pm
The waiting is the worst. Ugh. I hope time flies by for ya!
May 29th, 2008 8:49 pm
I think Craig is right, that timing will work out well! I hope you get your little boy. But then you’ll really have the pick a boys name???
The waiting is hard, but at least you have a lot to keep busy with.
May 30th, 2008 4:28 pm
I was hoping i would get in this evening and you would have been able to get the scan, too.
Monday will be exciting, too.
I think Craig is right, too. You will need more diversons on Monday than you did today. Good luck with the surgery.
June 1st, 2008 1:20 am
Ah the dreaded waiting
There’s nothing worse. I think it’s very natural to want a little boy if you’ve already had two girls. I hope you get that little guy. Just think of all the fun your two girls will have tormenting….I mean…dressing him up like a little doll 