Synchronization of Us

I still feel like im buzzing after the news , i had not admitted to anyone just how much i really wanted a boy. To scared of it being a girl and people thinking i would not have loved her. Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments and it looks like the majority of you guessed right on the poll. I will draw the winning name later in the week, just want to get the surgery over and done with first.

The scan was just amazing, she started and almost straight away said its a boy as she pointed out the parts. From that moment i was in shock and had to fight to hold back the tears (i do think a couple escaped).  She switched to 4d for a couple of moments which was wonderful as we didn’t expect it. Seeing this in real life is so different that seeing it online or in pictures and was something i will never forget.  The picture was so clear and everything could be seen  just as looking at a video. We see the legs moving and  the toes wiggling about , watched him try to get his thumb in his mouth and yes got a very clear shot of the boys parts. There is no denying he is ALL MALE. (Think it makes so much sense to switch to 4d if they can just to make sure , you could not be mistaken then).

Afterwards i stopped myself shaking and smiling just enough to call the family and spread the good news. Everyone was thrilled for us , i get to give my dad his first grandson and my gran her first great grandson which is really special to me.

I still want to cry thinking about it, i keep using all the male words i can you know like ” son, he, him, his ” just to truly get my head around it. I have never imagined myself as the mother of a son but now cannot wait. I know its going to be so different but i look forward to the challenges.

Part of me also loves the idea that having a boy will not make Eilidh just the “middle child” . Rebecca will still get to be my first, my big wonderful girl and Eilidh gets to be my baby, my youngest girl. The boy gets to me my baby boy.  Now if we could solve the name problem life would be perfect.

Now as Craig predicted finding out today worked out perfectly and i have spent most of the day stupidly happy rather than moping about tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong im terrified and my stomach feels like lead but im not focusing on it and nothing else. Its going to be a busy day as we have to be at the hospital for 8am which means leaving the house around 6.30 *Yawn*.  I have asked Craig to do a blog post for me if we don’t make it home tomorrow night just to let everybody know how it went , hopefully he will remember.

Now im going for a nice long bath and i imagine will spend more time imagining my son and how he will complete my family

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