The Good And The Bad

At last the surgery is over with, and Rebecca is doing well.

Its been a crazy ,long day though. Surgery was scheduled for 2pm – so when the hospital phone around 7.30 saying that it had been moved and would more than likely be in the morning instead (offering no guarantee, it could still be afternoon) our house broke into chaos.
Ever tried to get yourself, your one year old and your hubby dressed (and fed in mine and Eilidhs case) and out the house in record time? . We had to drop Eilidh off at my mums and thankfully made it to the hospital just after 9.

Rebecca was awfully awake when we arrived, because she was on nil by mouth her oral sedative had been stopped letting her come to a little more. We don’t think she was in pain but definetly uncomfortable (more from the wires and how she was lying ) , if daddy took so much as a step away from her she would panic. (Yes even semi unconscious she is still a daddies girl) . Just before eleven she was taken away….

Surprisingly the time passed relatively quickly, by 3 o’clock she was back in the ICU and by 3.30 we got to see her again. Her ventilator had been moved from her mouth to nose and some wires changed about but for the most part not much had changed. The cuts on her chest and neck looked horrible and so bright against her pale skin , all to used to these things been bandaged up and hidden straight away. She is back on the paralyzing drug for the night at least but will come off that tomorrow.
Dr K was happy with her though, it went well and couldn’t of gone much better. Although he did admit that the real results could not be seen till next week when we took the ventilator out.

All good isn’t it, yes that part has been a dream and could not of gone better . Finally out of the woods with nothing left to worry about . HA HA when is it ever that easy for Rebecca

Not long after she returned we took a walk to make some phone calls, family members were waiting eagerly to here how she was doing . We returned to some not so good news, she had a dirty nappy while we were gone. The poo was very watery but more worryingly full of blood. Wanting to try and isolate the issue (is it the poo or pee) they put a catheter in .
They could tell straight away that it was an issue, her pee was bright red and worrying to them all. So on top of everything we are looking at a possible kidney issue. It could be one of a few things but its more than likely a “side effect” of the pneumonia , one of these things that happens according to the Renal doctor.
This may or may not be something to worry about, the doctor seemed optimistic and that given a couple of days it should clear up on its own. By the time we left her urine was already looking less bloody. We need to wait for the blood tests to come back and for a u/s scan to be done on her kidneys tomorrow. They are keeping her fluids down (to not work her kidneys to hard) and checking her hemoglobin levels carefully – if they fall to much she will need a blood transfusion.

Yet again its been a day full of ups and downs , the blood in urine shocked us all and i couldn’t help but cry as i curled up as close to Rebecca as i could get . No child deserves to be ill i know that, but i still keep thinking why her? Why now?
This was suppose to be such a wonderful week, DH was off work and the house was to be fully decorated (instead of barely done) . These last few days before he starts his PhD were meant to be family time. We had so many plans and Rebecca could not wait to get all that daddy time.
Everything is so confusing right now, i miss Rebecca so much it hurts but i also spend so much time missing Eilidh. She is left all day every day and while she seems to be loving it i hate being away from my baby so much . What i want is my family back, me and my two girls hanging together not spending a moment apart.