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Have any of you ever just held your baby so close you can feel there heart beat and every breath they take? Sometimes i stop breathing and keep myself as still as can be so i can take it all in . His warmth and his soul merging and meeting with mine .

Im truely embracing my AP side with Ru , we spend so many hours entangled with each other . At night im not deprived of him for a second , we snuggle and i find myself staring at him till i fall into a contented sleep . 

Outings are such a special time , the pram is rarely used – saved for those days when the rain is at its heaviest . No matted his mood or how he feels , the sling is like a magic button and he just cuddles up and goes to sleep . I love to position it so his head is just at my chin , his head just there to be covered in kisses.  We go out on walks or to the shop just the two of us , i feel free and able to relax . He is safe and we are together.

We feed for hours , breastfeeding on demand even if thats every 10 minutes .What can be more special than watching your son feed , knowing you are providing him with such a wonderful thing. 

Then they are the extra speical moments like this evening, my arms were full of children. All three of them squashed on my lap as we read a couple of stories. In turn i kissed them all on the heads , all so soft and all so perfect . A moment i will never forget