Synchronization of Us

Hey may not be full on crawling yet but he is darn close. Little vid of Ru being Ru

(Look at the state of my floor , kids drop everything in there path and he digs through everything)

I have spent the day feeling pretty sorry for myself , Ru had another terrible night and both girls were up a few times to.
Im tired and stressed , lack of sleep is really getting to me and it is effecting everything.

I just don’t see how its ever going to get better.

Tonight i returned home to some terrible news , an online friend was due with her 2nd child next week. Don’t know any details yet but her wonderful daughter has passed on . The pain the family must be going through is just unimaginable . We shared our first pregnancies together and have known each other more than 4 years now.

Tonight im not going to feel sorry for myself but just enjoy every minute of the sleepless night, my son is here. All my children are here and well and im so blessed.

I know my friend would give everything to go through these sleepless nights.

I completely failed at any attempts of dieting today , its all about leaving the house and not taken
money with me . Today i had no choice as we needed nappies and some rash cream for poor Ru .
Im just so tired and its so HARD. I think i got 2 hours of sleep last night (and broken at that) and around 4 the night before. Night after night with no sleep is driving me insane.
The boy screamed for hours last night , Eilidh awake sitting with us the entire time (Rebecca woke
once, appeared through the living room for her drink and went back to bed not even noticing us) . I really
could do without Eilidh and her sleep issues at the moment…

Back on track tomorrow though, done our food shopping and there is nothing but healthy stuff in there PLUS load of chewing gum . Hoping chewing that will help with snacking (hate eating with a minty mouth) .

The kids have all been so funny lately and its great watching them grow, each day Ru is getting closer to crawling and today started trying to move forward with his legs - problem is he does not move his arms and falls forward .He is constantly getting himself wedged under stuff crawling backwards (from cots to chairs to trampolines my little terror) .
The girls both talk like crazy, noticed Eilidhs speech changing alot and expanding her sentence structure. Like instead of saying “daddy bath” she is saying “daddy IN THE bath” . Simple but very cute.

They have both fell in love with this game and ask for it all the time. There both developing such an appreciation for there ABCs and letters in general . They can both now tell you what letters all there family members names begin with . Im so proud of them both

Oh and Rebecca is doing wonderfully with no nappies at night, 3 nights in a row wearing underwear and no accidents. Im so proud of my big girl

Im really ashamed to admit how much i weigh these days, 3 pregnancies have really taken its toll on my body. I want to blame the pregnancies but i know alot of it has been my own fault , i made bad choices and choose to enjoy the time rather than worrying about the weight.

To many years of thinking like that has left me in a state, im very over weight (200lbs +) and feel very unattractive. I get embarrassed leaving the house wondering what people are thinking of me. I never wear make up and my hair is always just pulled back - somedays shock i don’t even brush it.

I hate myself and how i look.

I know i need to make changes , im terribly addicted to food and can eat horrible amounts in one sitting . Each week i would buy huge amounts of junk every time i left the house and finishes it within the hour. It was out of control and humiliating.

I need to change and today i have started . I am not calorie controlling or following a diet (for the moment ) , Ru is still exclusively breastfeeding and i cannot risk my milk supply by cutting down to much . Im cutting out the junk , when going out taken the exact money i need and not a penny more. Trying to only eat when hungry and not when im bored . Afternoons can be the worst for me in terms of snacking so today i played the WII Fit - exercise PLUS kept me away from food.
Im hoping to lose a stone (14lbs) by the first of May- if i succeed going to treat myself to a nice new hair cut . Something short and easy to style . Then after that hopefully some new clothes .

I really need to develop some self control , its going to be a difficult week while by body gets use to the changes but hopefully easier as the time passes. Wish me luck

Happy Mothers day to all the UK folk

For mothers day i decided to be all demanding, after all what other day (other than my birthday i guess) can i be the boss .

I demanded a long lie , my first since last mothers day and while it was only 2 extra hours (and been woken twice to feed baby) i STILL got one and it was lovely.

I demanded to be woken with a gift of chocolates which we could all happily share in bed .

I demanded to be taken out for a lovely lunch with my husband and children . Second day in a row the kids and i went out for lunch - we are spoiled.

I demanded we spent the afternoon somewhere with the kids. Park if warm or soft play if not , unfortunately it was raining so we spend the afternoon at there favourite soft play area.

I demanded we visited both sets of parents and got to wish our mums happy mothers day and share gifts with them.

Pretty demanding aren’t i?

Really all i wanted was to spend the day with my family, recently Craig has been working 7 days (5 at work at weekends doing stuff around the house) . Its been far to long since we all spend the day together and i used mothers day as an excuse for doing it. I really cannot wait till this place is finally finished and we can start doing family fun weekends.

It has been a lovely family day, the girls had a great time and got to see every person they cared about (except for poor Uncle Graeme who was working AGAIN) . They got to eat way to much junk but did spend at least 10 minutes on there teeth to make up for it . Oh and Rebecca done great last night, no accidents and is away to bed with underwear again tonight.

The last few months i have not been feeling blogging at all. Writing a chore and fell so behind with reading them that i just ignored them completely.

I finally hit the dreaded mark all as read button, posts from the beginning of the year were still waiting for me and i had no chance of catching up . I have moved back to goggle reader again and hope to stay on top of it all, even drop some comments now and then. I MISS blog reading, i MISS commenting and i miss the community of it all.

I think for a while i lost track of what my blog was about , posts would be just updates of the kids or moans about the day. Reading back to the beginning i use to blog about our day , what we done and saw - for some reason i just stopped doing that and have been missing it ever since.  I remember reading an article about how people hate this and don’t want to know that i went shopping , had lunch and bought a new top blah blah blah BUT i enjoy reading these type of posts on other blogs and thinks its great to document then days that you forget quickly but should always be remembered.

A rather long winded start to the post

Saturdays are normal our lazy day and tend to stay home and catch up on cleaning today though my mum invited us out shopping with the promise of a nice lunch and shopping (on her) after wards. What girl can resists

Wearing my lovely new Mei Tai we walked in the lovely spring weather to our shopping mall. Met my mum and niece and went to Pizza Hut for lunch , Ru got to sit in the high chair and chew on some apple slices looking like such a big boy . The rest of the afternoon was spent shopping till we dropped . The girls got (i think) 3 outfits each , new shoes , hair accessories and Pjs . The boy got a new outfit and new shoes and socks (he really does not need much , people have been so generous with there old stuff that we are bursting at the seams with boys clothes) - the outfit i did buy was 9-12 months but looks like it would fit him fine.

It was lovely just spending the afternoon with my mum , she loves spoiling the kids as much as i do.

We got home all tired out (and i was very achy from not feeding the boy for so long) , thankfully dinner was a beef casserole and already cooking in the crock pot. Now 2 out of 3 kids are sleeping and Becca is curled up with daddy - wearing her new Upsy Daisy PJs and PANTS - this was 100% her choice and the first time she has tried it . No idea how she will do with it , last thing i can be bothered with is having to change bed sheets at 3am . Not getting enough sleep as it is….

Once Rebecca is down planning a nice long hot bath either reading Keeping Faith or the latest Heat Magazine . Hopefully watch some Lost with hubby lately.

Tomorrow is Mothering Sunday here in the UK and we have a special family day planned , one which includes a long lie for me MY FIRST IN A YEAR.

Hope everyone else had a lovely day to

Today my baby boy turns 6 months old. I admit im a little heart broken over it, he was meant to stay a baby much longer.

Then…

Now…

He is still a little chunky money , getting close to 19lbs now i guess although he is not gaining as quick as he first was.

No teeth yet (not that im expecting any, girls were 9 then 10.5 months old) .

We “started” solids this past week ,yet again doing Babyled Weaning . So far only offering something at dinner time, even then the only reason im offering him something then is for the past 6 months i have eat every meal with him on my knee. He seems to enjoy the act of holding and chewing the food, he does not really swallow anything. He cannot pick up food to great yet either.
Not bothered though as he likes his milk and is doing great with it so don’t see why anything has to change. I do love being the only person who can provide for him.

He is a rolling machine , he can get anywhere he wants rolling . No idea why i bother with the baby mat anymore. He is so close to crawling but for the moment only seems to go backwards or sideways , frustrating for him but cute to watch . He can sit for a few minutes before he falls but we rarely practice this skill . He does not seem to enjoying sitting up - he is an active boy and sitting provides not enough moving around. He can clap and sometimes wave

Sleep is still a nightmare for the most parts, we cannot seem to get him into a decent routine during the day AT ALL. Sometimes he takes a few good naps, other days a few very short ones. It does not help that we are out and about doing groups and school runs alot , the lack of consistently i guess. He goes down wonderfully at night but from there onwards it can be hell , sometimes he will wake once and other nights a dozen times. I think im just use to it now.

He is the fussiest of the three kids (so much for the theory that kids born at home is a nice peaceful environment means a very happy child), very demanding with a terrible temper. BUT He is also a big snuggle bunny who loves to be in the sling or just have someone giving him attention (except at night of course) .

I love his smile and his giggle (that always needs to be worked for) . Cannot believe 6 months have passed already , half way to his first birthday….

I know i should do a real post but just don’t have it in me just now. So tired by the end of the day that blogging just holds no appeal. Nothing holds any appeal actually except a hot bath and bed

Things are going well around here, im just busy . Ru is all but crawling now and the girls ….well they are 2 and 3 so never stop.  I even get sleep some nights (as in only up once or twice lol) . So for your viewing pleasure some videos that may not be of interest to anyone but me

The Future Musician? Walked in the living room to find him playing the keyboard , of course trying to get it on video was much harder. Ignore hubby and his cheeky comments from behind the camera.

What child does not love seeing themselves on tv? The girls get a real kick out of this toy.

Ru talks to the camera .

Auntie Stephanie playing with Ru , he is definitely a boy as in he likes it rough. You only seem to get giggles if you are tossing him upside down/ flinging him around etc….

Look at my boys newest trick, ignore the big fat person and shoddy camera work (thanks sis)