Synchronization of Us

Im out of blogging material this week , school is officially out for summer and we are already bored. At least our holiday is less than 2 weeks away.

Its been one of those long days , got a weird fuzzy head/blocked ear thing going on which leaves me dizzy . Trying to get the flat ready for selling (Still , just on cleaning again ) and we are getting no where. Kids watched way to much tv and when not watching tv were demanding food or fighting. The boy was not for napping and wanted constant entertainment. You should see him stand solo though , becoming a right little expert . I think walking is only a few weeks away…

Got an text from a friend saying she was pregnant and i don’t get it . She has a daughter a little older than Eilidh and a few months back found her husband “cheating” , he says it was just talking through internet/mobile and nothing else and she believes him . She admits herself the trust is gone and wanted to have another baby to bring them back together. I have never understood the have another child to try and fix up a marriage thing… To me relationships have to be strong to survive the pregnancy and first few years , its not fair to bring another child into it.
Guess its there choice though and hopefully it will work out for them all .

Have another online friend pregnant with her 5th , admits herself the relationship between her husband and herself is terrible and they only stay together for the kids but keeps getting pregnant . Loves being pregnant and normally gets pregnant within 6-12 months of the other one. She is always going on about how depressed she is (terrible pnd which gets worse each time) , how her husband does nothing and she wants to leave him and even worse how poor they are (neither work ) , thousand of pounds in debt and cannot afford to feed themselves most weeks . Why have another child ? She says she has no plans to stop either.

Looks like im in a moaning mood today, should not really be its only 6.20 pm and the youngest 2 are sleeping for the night and Craig is getting Becca down . Bedtimes are getting earlier and earlier around here , Eils putting herself to bed as early as 5.30 some nights .

Think i can hear the boy waking , he always wakes after 10/15 minutes for another feed .Hope everyone is having a nice Sunday

Im sure like most parents i have a couple of regrets when it comes to my kids , i look back at stuff i done at the time and just think why!!!! . One of those regrets its not wearing my girls.
With Rebecca i never tried, i had a baby bjorn and after one attempt hated it . Honestly though i had never really heard of baby wearing before she was born.

When pregnant with Eils i really wanted to give it a shot and researched all the different type of slings, finally deciding on a ring sling from here . It was a lovely sling and it is not the companies fault but she and i (why do i think of slings as feminine? ) just never got along. Eilidh never liked it and the few times i tried she fussed, i think she could sense how uncomfy i was in it.

Fast forward to pregnancy number 3 and this time i wanted to get it right, at a baby show i got to see some slings up close and personal and loved the look of a wrap. It looks simple to use and best of all comfy for all. I went for it and invested in a lovely Calin Blue sling . This i loved , from day one i felt happy in it - Ru also adored it and it was the start of a wonderful journey.

9 months on i now use a Mei Tai daily, the wrap on loan to a friend ( i found Ru was a little heavy for it and it would start to drop over time) . I love nothing more than slipping him on and holding him close. Its not really about convenience these days , its more about enjoying the snuggles of an active boy. Today we went to the breastfeeding group , It was a hot day and his arms were free of the sling and he snuggled right up to my chest - his head just under my chin. The whole way there i had my arm around his back and head resting on him , essentially enjoy a lovely intimate hug. I also could not stop kissing his adorable little head.
I was so happy walking with him , i could of been pushing a pram . My arms aching and the boy fussy and hot , instead i had my arms around the most amazing little guy . There is nothing more soothing than walking about holding him , and for that reason i think we will be baby wearing for along time to come.

I know i do complain alot but i really do love my life, its full of awesome little people who bring me so much joy . I tear up a few times every day watching them grow and change .
My boy is growing so fast, his first tooth broke through today and he took 2 little solo steps this evening . The girls just amaze me , so big and beautiful . I stop sometimes and wonder what i done to deserve them?

My lovely niece received a Golden Award at school today for High Achievement. All so proud of her.

Yah Courts xxx

Morning “picnics” are a big occasion around here , the girls love them - and it looks like my boy does to. It amazes me to watch the 3 of them interact and play together. I still think of Ru as this itty bitty newborn and he is really not…

(I seem to have caught the girls mid conversation here, to cute)

I often wonder what it would be like having only one child , i imagine going about my normal day to day life with my little sidekick . Her and i doing everything together , from walking hand in hand to the local shops to spending the day doing crafts and watching movies.
Instead i have 3 children who always want something different , i hate letting the girls walk as if one walks the other moans and the two of them walking….well its not easy or pleasant . Crafts are a nightmare activity , Eilidh STILL eats and destroys everything . Normally the girls end up fighting and i end up frustrated.
I think of all the free time i would have with one , how un-chaotic life would be …Then i remember i actually like chaos . I think how hard it would be having to entertain one child all day long. I think about the girls running around playing games and loving each other. Just tonight Eilidh went to bed and demanded kisses from us all , she thought Rebecca was going to miss her and demanded a kiss from Nenah (her name from Becca) . After the kiss she just smiled and said “I like Nenah kisses” .
I love watching all three grow and become close , i love they will all have each other forever.

Sometimes though i manage to squeeze in some one on one time and its such a wonderful treat. This afternoon while Rebecca was at nursery my sister offered to take Ru out (he was having one of those fussy days where he did not want down but was not happy up either) , she loves taken him out alone and for once i agreed .
I was left just alone with Eilidh and as it was a lovely sunny day we took a walk to go and get some ice cream.

I really is so easy just going out with one, she happily walked along beside me - only running away when i said it was ok (when there was a long path or patch of grass in front of us) . We chatted and she commented on everything from the trees to birds to path and road …every minute she would add “i like ice cream” (she loves saying I Like just now).
We went to the shops and both bought an ice cream , we sat outside the shop and eat them up.

The cheeky little imp kept stealing little bites of mine but of course i was not allowed anywhere near hers.
We started to head home after it but with plenty of time still to pass, we were to pick my niece up from school at 3 and it was not yet 2. We took a detour to a park and played on the slide, swings and climbing frame (giggling together as i gave them all a go)

It was just such an awesome day, i have laughed so much and loved just hanging out with Eilidh. My sister has offered to take the kids anytime i want and i think i may take her up on the offer soon , leaving her with Eils and Ru and taken Rebecca out for some one on one time. I get excited just thinking about it.

I freaking love this , for all your Twlight/Buffy fans you need to watch it

(Not done by me, please visit http://www.rebelliouspixels.com/ or Youtube and give the orignal artists the praise)

Im way behind on my photo editing/sharing. I finally managed to get up to date with May and of course there is about a thousand cute pictures i want to share. Going to spread them out over the next few days

It appears im going to make it through this week without any major upsets.

Its strange Craig not being here , i am use to him being gone long hours . Doing bathing,beds, meals and everything else alone is no big deal . Having no one coming home at night to give me a big hug is what i miss.

My sister and neice have been around alot , staying for dinner and baths. Last night they spent the night and we watched Twlight (which i was not that keen on, i did love the books though) . Im even enjoying some “me” time in the evenings , for the first 4 years we lived together Craig worked evenings . I enjoyed getting to do what i wanted around the house , go from room to room if i felt like it without someone asking what i was doing . The kids are behaving and we are keeping busy during the days , there all sleeping well (shhh don’t tell anyone incase i jink it but the boy has sort of been sleeping all night the last few nights shhhh)

I miss Craig because i miss him , its a constant ache . I just want him to be here messing up the house and getting me all annoyed. The girls are going crazy without him , Rebecca got really upset today not understanding why her daddy was not home yet.

Im a silly woman i know , he will be back in 2 days . I cannot imagine spending more than a few days apart.

*Yawn* .

Im not sure how much energy i have for blogging tonight , its been a long day . It was once again time for our local country fair (i talk about it here) .
As with everything it was not without its drama . To start with we took our picnic down to the park , the girls could play and there was grass for Ru to crawl about. Then we realised the girls were shoeless AND we could not find the shoes anywhere, it is kinda funny thinking of now but at the time we were all in a panic - the shoes and socks were GONE . Eventually i got a hold of hubby who brought us an extra set down , of course 5 minutes later we found them (strangely about 5 minutes away from the park near the pony ride).

The girls all got a go on the ponies and a few fair ground rides , Becca got her first taste of the Waltzers and she loved them. Becca is not feeling to great though she did have her moments of running around , most of the afternoon was spent pushing Ru in the pram and carrying Becca in the sling (what a site that must have been lol)

Talking of Becca she gave us a scare last night , she has been off since Wednesday . Some points she seems fine and others so tired and feverish with a nasty cough. Craig woke me up around 10.30 last night (i had fell asleep watching tv in the living room) saying she was coughing up blood. She was asking for me so i went to her and we snuggled while Craig called NHS 24 , for a few moments i was so convinced it was all happening again . It strange how i think its behind us then bang the fear is back again.
Rebecca turned round and her face was bloody , looking clearly at her i thought it was easy to tell the blood had came from her nose (when she coughed bringing it through her throat) . Craig looked closely to and i think he agreed BUT it was to late , the wheels had already been set in motion and the hospital wanted her brought in .
At 11 pm our poor girl was taken from her bed to the local hospital , where she was checked over then sent to another hospital (the one she had her surgery etc… at) . She was checked out and despite them worrying and telling hubby that she would be taken to surgery shortly , they seemed worried for some reason that her body was rejecting the graft after all this time. THEN they checked her nose and it started bleeding, and bleeding ….and they beleive us it was just a bloody nose.
They got back home just after 3 this morning , all that worry for a freaking nose bleed.
I don’t blame hubby though , i don’t know what i would of thought if i just turned around and she was coughing up blood. Scary scary…

Craig does pick his timings though , tomorrow he flies to Germany for the week. I know plenty of parents to the single parenting gig all the time but i don’t . If going to be a long hard few days, i moan about him but will miss him like crazy . Kids are going to be lost without daddy.
I am proud of him , he will be doing a lecture there regarding the work he is doing . This is a big opportunity for him , and he admits it a scary one . Last year at this time he was just graduating and now presenting his work is at a major European Physics conference. So proud of how far he has came