In 9 days a certain little man will be 9 months old. Did you get that 9 whole months.
I have a confession to make , one thats difficult to blog about . I have mentioned before that i want my kids to read these posts one day and i never want them to think they are not loved or wanted.
Last week we were faced with yet another difficult evening with the boy , all he wanted was to be awake and bouncing around in our arms. He would and could do this for hours , night after night he was playing this game and as with everything it was taken me to the brink . As one more attempt to settle him for the night failed i just listened to him scream , hubby was wanting to get him and i just could not face it . I was mess , crying and unable to move from Craigs arms . “I don’t think i love him” , words i never thought i would say about a child of mine . BUT there i was uttering it over and over again , Craig in his understand way just told me gently he knew that was not true . He of course was completely right, i think i was saying it more to try and make my point to Craig – just how bad the situation was getting for me .
After some crying time i went to my son , cuddled him in my arms and watched as he fed and went over . I more than love this little man , he is almost an obsession to me . Everything about him just calls to me..
No he is not the easiest of babies , but he is unique and wonderful in so many ways. Would i want to change him? Not in the slightest .
We are having a much better sleep week and for that im incredibly grateful . How could i not love this little dude?
(In a rare sleeping /snuggling moment)
(After a “snack” of pink tissue paper)
(Just being cute )
(Showing off his standing, how big does he look in this shot? He just loves the washing machine )
What a gorgeous little man. Mine is 9.5 months today.
How amazingly honest of you to admit that and of course you didn’t mean it. It’s so hard, sleep deprivation is a killer. Our little one had reflux and screamed for about eight weeks until he was prescribed Gaviscon. When he was screaming I couldn’t think straight. Hindsight is a wonderful thing, but remember this too shall pass. Fingers crossed he sleeps better from now on. xx
Laura, I feel your pain! Maybe your girls were better sleepers… Hannah was the WORST sleeper! She was up at least every 2 hours until she turned 2 years old. It was nightmarish… though after the newborn phase I was able to cope w/ minimal sleep (I did work full time back then). I know it sounds a long way off, but I bet by the time he’s 2 he’ll be sleeping all night
Maybe it will even get better after his first birthday (could his molars be bothering him??). Big hugs! Of course you love him!!! He’s ADORABLE (good thing too!)
Sometimes babies seem to know just how to wear us thin. With us it was more naps/lack of naps with Little Elvis. I completely understand how frustrating it can be. (He’s been chattering and crying instead of napping for about an hour as I write this…) Glad that you’re having a good sleep week this week.
Laura, I think you were very brave to admit what so many of us secretly feel from time to time. If we’re honest with ourselves, we’ve ALL been there. I know I have! Of course you love him more than the world. But that doesn’t mean you’re not frustrated and driven to the brink of insanity by him. You are a great mama!
I totally feel your pain here. Aislinn just finally decided to start sleeping all night. Hopefully your little man will start sleeping for you soon. I know how crappy it feels to have almost no sleep, but once you start getting to sleep again it’ll turn around super fast.
I am sure we have all had those moments. I know I sure did when mine were younger. Lack of sleep, long days, and frustration can make us all throw our hands up in defeat every now and then. If it didn’t make a mother go to the edge I would wonder if she was really human.
On another note, you son is absolutely adorable!
Happy Birthday! Congratulations, my Asherah will be 9 months on the 22nd! I am sorry that he is not sleeping at night. I wish there was something I could tell you, but some kids just don’t sleep.
Wow we have many things in common, you and I.
I highly recommend the Moby wrap. It was the best $60 I ever spent.
Peace. Love. Light.
Truly delicious kids you have.
I hear your pain. Max always slept with us and still does. He never wanted to sleep alone. crying it out did not work for him and did not work for us because of the screaming. but all night parties were rough too. There is not easy way with this. Sam was a better sleep. all kids are different and each kid needs different things. I hope you find your way!
Sleep deprivation does that to many Mums, it certainly did to me when Baby B was about 6 mths. I felt exactly the same. She now sleeps through the night more or less and having more sleep has done lots to improve my wellbeing.
Don’t worry, you obviously didn’t mean it xx