It Was Positive
November 5th, 2009 | 
Author: I will never forgot the moment those little lines first doubled for me, really can anyone?
Three times i have went through it , each time it was a life changing experience. It is amazing how your whole world can be altered in a minute.
Strangely , three pregnancies and it was only the first one i knew about . I knew the test would be positive before it was , with the others i was completely blown away.
First time around i , as many others im sure was late. Tuesday 5th October came and went with not a thing , sure i felt crampy and had my usual monthly skin breakout but nothing else. I know for some people this may be the norm but i was very much a every 28 type gal and being even a day late was strange for me.
Wednesday, Thursday and Friday passed . I still felt like something was going to happen but could no longer deny the facts. Snuggled up in bed on the Sunday night i confessed my worries to my then boyfriend (who is now my husband of course) . We both agreed it was more than likely nothing , these things just happened sometimes didn’t they?
Now i know you may be thinking why did i not just take a pregnancy test? Well back then i had no idea home tests were just as reliable as a doctors test , i would only take the word of a professional .
The Monday i went to the doctors , they requested a sample for the next morning and was told results would be back for Friday .
On the Tuesday we could no longer wait , on the way home from work we picked up a pack of 2 tests. Reading the instructions and the warning on back gave us a good laugh , it warned that if the test was taken late in the day and to much fluids been drank a false result may be given . As per the norm i drank litres of water every day in work so i think we both believed the result would be negative no matter if i was or was not.
I took the test and walked away , it was going to be negative no matter what right? (Even though i was now 8 days late and about 90% sure i must be pregnant, i just felt it was true ) . The positive result was instantaneous , i laughed showing it to Craig .
It could be wrong though , we were only going to take doctors word for it BUT we would take the other one in the morning just to be double sure. This one would be negative just to confuse us , we both were so sure of that.
So first thing in the morning + another test = positive of course. Did we sit down and discuss the implications of this discovery? Nope we both agreed that it may not be true and needed to wait till Friday and what the doctor said
I never forgot that night in bed, Craig lovingly running his hands over my belly “a baby” he said so softly i almost broke down. I tried to say it may not be true and he just said it is true , he knows it is .
Looking back i was naive, i had no idea how these things worked and knew only 2 things
1 - This was not the right time for us to have a child , i had just turned 23 and we had only been together a year. We moved into the flat a few months before and were still struggling financially , Craig was also in his first year of University.
2 - I was desperately in love with my future husband and wanted a baby more than i wanted anything at that moment in time.
Friday arrived , we went for our normally Friday lunch date. Craig was off university then and my work only open half days. During lunch i phoned the doctor , part of me expecting the results to not be in yet and to be told to wait till Monday. After a week and a half of wonder all my dreams and fears were confirmed in those three little words “it was positive” . I nodded to Craig as i asked what happens next.
The phonecall ended and we finally were able to talk about what was really happening . What were we going to do ? Craig was due to start work soon so the talk was put of till later that night.
When he got home , we sat together on the couch and both knew what we wanted . We wanted this baby , wanted this baby together . We cuddled, we talked and we planned .
Over 5 years ago this happened and it is still all there, it is still all fresh . How could i ever forget finding out my daughter was on the way ?
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November 5th, 2009 3:01 pm
Hahaha my first was much the same way Laura. Only I was 18, we had been dating for about 5 months (although already engaged for about 4 months LOL), and I was finishing my last year of high school. Oh yeah, and I had been on birth control. So much for that working.
However, I had more doubt than you even though we both *knew* I was pregnant I didn’t believe 3 positive home tests or a positive blood test done by the doctor. I didn’t believe it at all until the first ultrasound, which was done early because we had no idea when I got pregnant to begin with (I turned out to be 9 weeks at the time and that was about a month after the positive tests began). When the ultrasound happened and the little peanut baby showed up with a stubby little arm sticking up in the air I said to the tech doing the ultrasound “OMG!!!! I’m pregnant! There’s a baby in me!!!!” I think she thought I was nuts, but I had been so sure that we were all wrong and that there was no chance I was actually pregnant because it so didn’t fit out plans. Ah well, here I am about 5 and half years from the time we found out and I’m still not sure that oldest daughter of mine is anything I expected or am at all prepared to handle. She’s wonderful but stubborn as ever and has more fire in her than I ever wanted to deal with LOL
November 5th, 2009 3:08 pm
I still remember it well. I was 12 (yes 12!) days late, I’d been putting it off since I was *so* crampy I was sure my period was on its way.
I spoke with a work colleague and decided to buy a test on the way home just to put my mind at rest. Went to Sainsburys and bought a double pack. Similarly to you it was night time, I’d been drinking water all day, I wasn’t sure I would get an accurate result anyway. My OH was working that night, I wouldn’t have done the test if it wasn’t for me being so sure it would be negative. I didn’t look until the 3 minutes were up then turned over to see a clear positive.
At this point I fell to pieces, crying hysterically. The usual story applied of it not being the ‘right time’. We were both 19, conceived 5 days after moving into our own home, had only been engaged for 2 days, my OH was in 2nd year of uni etc, etc!
I drove to my OH’s work (in a very unfit state to drive), luckily he was in the office on his own since I burst through the door still sobbing. Threw the test into his hands so he could see it for himself.
He helped me get a grip a bit, thought the results were wrong so we done the other test when he got home, still positive.. We were both very accepting of the situation despite being shocked, no other thought that having a baby crossed our minds, which suprises me when I think back on the situation.
The next morning I woke up in agony (on my face), booked Drs appt (planned to do this anyway due to pregnancy). Found out I had mumps that day! Told our parents that day also - bad memories!
I would love to experience a planned pregnancy in the future, to go through it without the worry and fear when it’s not the right time.
November 6th, 2009 4:19 pm
That’s a nice finding out story! That’s funny about not trusting the at home tests.
November 19th, 2009 12:57 pm
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