So Much To Say
January 2nd, 2010 | 
Author: First it should be Happy New Year to all my lovely reader. May 2010 be the best one yet x
Secondly it is 2010 people , 10 years ago i was single and had no desire to get married and have children. I am very glad i changed my mind.
2010 will bring some changes to our family. Eilidh will start Nursery, Rebecca school in August and Ruairdh playgroup in September. We will hopefully move out of this flat (PLEASE) and i will finally loose all this extra weight. I am so excited to see what it has in store.
Otherwise my mind is a mess , i know what i want to write about but just find the time to sit down and do it. I figured a few bullet points are in order and maybe i will expand if i find the energy.
- I have no idea what the future holds, was all confident about applying to University 2011 till i really thought about it. Craig finished his Phd just after i would start , his field is unique and there is a high chance we will be leaving here. Will i get all excited about starting school again only to move and not be able to ? Even if we stayed in the UK and i got a place - how could we afford it? My mum was going to watch the children while i went. I will carry on and not stop dreaming but i am all conflicted just now.
- Will we ever move from this flat? 5 people in a small 2 bedroom is NOT working. We all need a little more space.
- Breastfeeding IS BEST , Formula is not a decent substitute. They are not the same thing, Formula is not as good at breastmilk . I have no idea why in this day and age people still think this way.
- On that note i sometimes hate that i cannot be myself on this blog . I dream of making a separate anonymiss blog someday where i can say what i want and be myself. I am so worried of offending people that i just don’t say it .
- I want another baby, this is not on the cards for us (it is now more or less impossible if you know what i mean ) . My sister says it best , if it was an option i would not be so broody but because it is not it is all i want. I think she is right , just cannot bear my babies growing up .
- I am tired as normal , Ru was up being sick at midnight last night. Greedy little thing eat way to much new years dinner.
- SNOW what the heck is that all about. We have not seen it so heavy or last so long here for years. I am dreading if it still like this next week. It keeps snowing then stopping for a while and starting up again, means the layer below is turning to ice . Pushing the pram is just a nightmare but it is to slippy for me to feel safe wearing the sling.
Guess that is enough for now, going for a bath then watching some more Dexter with my hubby
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January 2nd, 2010 3:26 pm
I know the feel about being conflicted about school. Sometimes it just turns out that as much as we want something it has to wait. I’ll be finishing my Associates and then everything else will be put on hold until it seems more reasonable for me. I love being in school, but the more I think about it the less it seems to work right now for me to keep going after my current stuff is done. Which I’m alright with. I’ve decided I won’t stop doing something for myself, it’ll just change. I think maybe cake decorating classes will be in my future. Perhaps I’ll write a book or something.
Breastfeeding v Formula: Typically I agree. However, there are some cases when I can’t really be upset about the choice to use formula. There are some cases where breastfeeding really isn’t an option or there are other issues that come up and formula really is better just due to the situation. That’s not nearly as often as the use of formula is though. I can’t understand why people just say f* it and use formula or get a c-section because they don’t want to deal with the “work” of breastfeeding or the pain of labor etc.
As for wanting another baby, ME TOO!!! Only it is actually an option for us at some point. We aren’t sure if it’ll happen because my history sucks, but we’re going to remain open to it and see because damn I want another tiny baby to hold and love and snuggle etc.
January 2nd, 2010 3:28 pm
Oh yeah, final thought… BE YOURSELF!! Yes, some people may get offended. Some people may disagree. If they can’t deal with you having a different opinion then they need to grow up a bit. I’m sure you and I don’t see eye-to-eye on everything, and that’s fine with me. I would love to know what a person REALLY thinks even if it’s not the same as I think. So yeah, BE YOURSELF!!!!!!
January 2nd, 2010 4:40 pm
I think everyone has the right to their own opinion and should feel able to express that opinion on their own blog. That said, the breastfeeding thing is very emotive. I know breastmilk is best but I was unable to feed my baby that way so when I read your statement I had an emotional response to what you said. It shocked me but I went back and read it again and I don’t feel you meant to upset people.
Yes breastmilk is best but formula is an acceptable substitute if breastfeeding is not possible. The pressure to be able to breastfeed and the feelings of guilt when doesn’t work out are horrible when you are unable to do it.
January 3rd, 2010 5:46 am
I know what you mean about not feeling you can write what you want, there are some things I don’t write for that reason too. As for offending people..everyone is entitled to differing opinions and if they don’t like yours it is your blog and they should either not read or just agree to differ.
Uni - I think you should still go for it. If you do move you should be able to transfer. Follow your dreams :-)!