I feel every time I turn around just now someone else is announcing there pregnancy.
I know it’s silly to be jealous , I have 3 amazing kids and even if we were going to have a forth just now is just not the right time for it . We would need a bigger house , hubby needs to find a permanent job and truthfully for the first time in many years im getting a little bit of my freedom back and im not ready to loose that.
I really do miss being pregnant though and all the wonders that come along with it. The feeling of the baby growing inside you , the constant wonder of what will they be like and how will the birth will be.
I dream of having a nice and stress free pregnancy , my first was horrible and I had various problems from day 1 (migraines, Polyhydramnios , ligament problems just to name a few of them) then the birth was long and painful and my daughter born with medical problems .
I was lucky that pregnancy 2 and 3 were straight forward and that I mostly felt fine during them but the mental stress and worry consumed me .
2nd time it was how would I cope with 2 babies 17 months apart . My eldest was still breastfeeding, not sleeping well , co-sleeping and not to mention not walking or talking and I spent so much of the pregnancy in a panic over my ability to cope with it (turns out though it was a breeze and I should just of enjoyed the 9 months). Biggest problem was going over my due date when I was early the first time around.
3rd time was stressful again with yet more worries of how I would cope with a 3rd in just over 3 years . Both girls were still breastfeeding and my eldest still slept with us .We still only had a small two bed flat . Rebecca was also going through more medical problems and for a lot of the 3rd trimester I had to put my pregnancy aside and forget about it while dealing with her, I was unable to make midwife appointments or even thinking about the baby.
I think every pregnancy comes with its own worries and fears but I would love to be able to enjoy one in the way I really want to . I would love to feel excited (not scared) and have everyone else share in our joy . I would definitely turn to websites such as pregnancy.co.uk for advice and information on how baby is developing. I have no idea if another is in our future though , at the moment im going to enjoy the babies i already have and getting to sleep all night and try not think about it to much.
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