Synchronization of Us

Does anyone else have terrible blog envy? I read about a zillion blogs and sometimes they make me smile, sometimes they make me cry , sometimes they make me laugh out loud and i cannot count the number of times i have agreed with something the author has said.

Is my life just insanely boring compared to everyone else? , well no i don’t really believe that. How can life with two toddlers ever be called dull. I have funny stories a plenty, antidotes that would have you rolling around the floor in real life but when it comes to the written word i ……well…..suck .

This is not something new for me, for as long as i can remember i have loved writing . In my head im a prize winning author with wonderful stories floating around constantly. Its the pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) part that has always troubled me, how come the wickedly delicious dialog that runs around my head is bland , boring and poorly composed when recorded?

I know in my heart im not a writer , but when i yet again come across another wonderfully written blog the green  eyed monster appears.  A secret dream of mine has always been to take a creative writing course, nothing big or fancy with a degree at the end . Just someone willing to guide me in the world of words.

(And like you i have no idea the point behind this post)

I think I’m going to enjoy blogging; i really wanted to write last night but couldn’t get to the computer without a kid in my arms. Thankfully both angels are sleeping now - Rebecca has even been in her bed since 7.
Eilidh got her shots yesterday and was a bit ill in the evening, i gave her medicine when we got home as instructed but she couldn’t get more till 7pm and between 6 and 7 she was screaming in pain, she was just so miserable. Come 7 though i gave her the medicine - i gave her a full 5ml dose even though the health visitor said she could only get 2.5ml till she is 3 months. Well she is 3 months on Thursday and slightly bigger than the average 3 month old so i went with my mummy instinct and gave her more - she does spit out quite abit of it so more than likely only got about 3/4 a dose anyways. She thankfully then settled and slept well only getting up briefly
at 1.40am.
Today she was in fine form, we go out for lunch every Tuesday and she babbled and squealed her way through the meal just falling asleep at the end. We do our food shopping afterwards and now put both kids in the trolley .I love that

I’m getting worried about Rebecca’s hospital appointment in March, we had not receive anything yet so DH called the hospital and they said they have us done for the end of March and we should receive something soon.
The surgeon had mentioned before that if her voice was quiet they would operate again to separate more of the vocal cords. She is still really quiet so I’m pretty sure she will need more surgery.
I guess its the not knowing that is the worst part as we have no idea how bad the surgery would be, last time she was knocked out and on a ventilator but there was so much more involved that just separating a little bit of vocal cords. The worse part would be i more than likely couldn’t stay in the hospital with her as i would need to be with Eilidh, DH would stay but I’m mummy and it would break my heart to not be. I just pray its a very minor procedure and can be done simply.