Synchronization of Us

4.45 am my day started yesterday, and yes im aware it was far to early. I blame Eilidh really as she was the first to wake . She was in the cot chatting to herself, she was loud but happy.
This is not to unusual and happens at least a few times a week , what was unusual was that it woke Rebecca who jumped straight out of bed. Im guessing she was excited about turning the big 3.

We woke up Craig and the two of us sat around while the girls started opening presents, i say girls as of course Eilidh was not about to leave it all to her sister. Thankfully Rebecca did not mind.
They opened the presents quickly, and spent the rest of the morning playing with the gifts and balloons (while of course DH went back to bed).

After the normal morning routines we headed out to Kelvingrove Park to let the girls play about. We visit every year around Rebecca’s birthday as its just next to the hospital she had/has her surgery in . During her first operation we went there and talked about how great it would be taken Rebecca there one day, so we do each year i guess to remind ourselves how far she has come. Thankfully they both napped on the way there so had a wonderful time playing, even if we did spend the whole time just at the playpark.

When we finally dragged them away we made a quick shop for some party food and went home to get ready for her tea party. For various reasons this year we choose not to have a big birthday party for her, instead opting for a small family only tea party. We put on a buffet and invited the grandparents and aunt/uncle and of course Courtney. She done so well on the clothes front (which was what we asked for) , my little fashion lover was more than thrilled by them all and did not find them at all boring as her gran worried she would. She did get a few toys of course including Barbie Trike , Colour Wonder Paint Set (Both from us) and a playdoh set and boom box.

It went very well and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves, poor Eilidh was a little overwhelmed though and i think confused with having both Nana and Gran in the same room . I really was a lovely evening though and i think we may just do the same for Eilidhs birthday, once we have the house and the space i would love to invite more people but for the moment this is perfect.

As you can imagine once everyone left the kids had a quick bath and fell straight asleep, Craig and i spent the night playing Monopoly and talking about how amazing our kids were.

Can you believe it? My baby turns 3 years old today.

Its really been an amazing journey , as she has grown and matured so have i. She shows me a new world each and everyday and i will never be able to thank her enough for that.

We have had a long day, a busy day and we are all ready to sleep. We have all eaten to much and Rebecca got to many gifts. The day ends on a happy note as she curls up to daddy to go to sleep.

Pictures and a proper post will follow tomorrow’s , for tonight i will leave you with the links for “Rebecca’s Story” (Includes all the stuff that happened after her birth for anyone interested in why she needed the surgery this time) and say a Happy Birthday to my baby. Im so proud of her and could not wish for a more amazing daughter. I love you girl xxx

The Pregnancy
The Arrival
Afterwards Day 1 and 2
Afterwards Day 3 and 4
Afterwards Day 5 to 17
Afterwards The End

Sorry this is taken me so long, its been a busy few days and well have had some other stuff on my mind. Big thanks to everyone who voted and commented on my poll. 70% of you guessed correctly, seems you are all more “intune” with me than me :).

The winner will receive a box of Scottish goodies, what exactly will that be? I’m still not completely sure possible some sweets, tea and maybe a book. I have no idea till i start to shop. It should hopefully be sent next week.

Shall we get on with it? I received 34 entries into my little competition and of that 26 of you said boy. So who wins? I don’t even know myself yet………………

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Meredith from Pregnantly Plump. Congrats Meredith .

Sorry for not writing yesterday but it was a long day and we were all really tried, Rebecca got home yesterday lunch time and is so far doing well. Her voice is husky for the moment (like she has a sore throat) and today she seems tired and clingy - she has been through alot the last few days.
She doesn’t seem to be in much pain although this morning she has been complaining of a sore head so she got some medication and is relaxing just now while her sister naps. Her second surgery is scheduled for 27th June .

Through out the situation we could not be more proud of our little girl, she took it all in her stride and was a complete angel . The worst part for all of us was when she first came around from the anesthetic , she was groggy and upset at this point and we felt helpless. She kept going from Craig’s arms to mine and eventually fell asleep again waking up almost as good as new.

I will not go through the medical stuff again as Craig said it all in the last post but wanted to have a full documentation of the day so have plenty of pictures to share

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I think at first Rebecca just thought she had been taken for a day of fun, her surgery was at a children’s hospital and there is so much for them to do and play with . The morning started with a run around at the park as we got there extra early (These pictures were taken around 7.30am in the morning, yawn)

8am arrived and it was admission time, we were taken to a room and she had to get changed into pajamas

The next 30 minutes or so were spent answering questions and filling out forms, we spoke to what seemed like nurse after nurse and both the surgeon and the person doing the anesthetic . Numbing cream was put on her hands which were then wrapped in bandages to keep the cream in place “special gloves” we called them

After all the paperwork was done she got to go in the playroom for a while, it was a huge room with so many toys for the kids to play with. Thankfully there are to of them - one for pre op and the other for after. The pre - op one no food and drink is allowed so as to not upset the kids . Rebecca of course was having a great time here, at one point she was taken to the hearing test but brought right back.

Around 10 o’clock she was taken in, we went along to the waiting room (where of course she had more toys to play with) for a few minutes then i went with her while she got the anesthetic. She was such a brave girl sitting on the bed getting wheeled along, they thankfully used the mask to put her to sleep first rather than a needle.
Rebecca of course fought the mask , she was not wanting it over her face and we had to hold her down a little. She did go to sleep though and i had to wave my little girl goodbye and leave her in the hands of Doctor K.

Craig and i were taken to the ward she was going into and able to get settled, we both had a quick sandwich and waited for what seemed like forever. Around 12-ish we were told she was out and could go down to get her, they had just woken her up and she was sitting on her bed . Poor thing just looked completely confused and not all there, once in the ward i was able to lift her up and she just melted into my arms. She was so scared and confused at this point, i feel ill just thinking about it.

Just look at that poor face
She had a oxygen monitor on the end of her finger that was making her so upset, she just kept crying over it and once we got a nurse to remove it she went to sleep.

She slept for a good while finally waking up seeming much more like Rebecca again, the first thing she asked for was Chocolate . She got to have a banana and something to drink , she played a little in the afternoon but she was still tired . Plus the iv that had been put in during surgery had to remain in place over night and as they could not find a place on her hand had been placed on her foot, this hurt when she tried to walk so she had to be carried alot. Come dinner she was starving and gulped it down

She was in good spirits after eating and didn’t seem in pain, she fell asleep around 7.30pm and more or less slept straight though (minus the mean nurse taken her blood pressure at around 2am) . I tried to sleep in the bed next to her but between the other children crying and machines going off barely got any.
The next morning started at 5am, much to early considering there is nothing to do at that time. We snuggled in bed till around 6.30 when the morning checks and such started.

The next few hours were long and boring, all a waiting game first for the doctors to say she was ok to go then for the nurses to remove the iv. It was annoying her and even lying down she would keep her foot in the air

Once that was taken of she was much happier and got to run around and play till Craig and Eilidh got there, she was sure making up for lost time at this point by trying to destroy the place and jumping on the toy beds.

Now we just have to look forward to repeating the experience in a few weeks.

I promised Laura that I would give you all an update on how Becca’s hospital appointment went today. She was first sent for another hearing test, as the doctor was still a little concerned about her previous results. I think the results were even worse this time, however she really wasn’t interested in the test - all she cared about was playing with the toys in front of her!

As a result, the doctor had said he would have a closer look at her ears while she was in theatre, and if there was a problem he would remove her adenoids and put rubber grommets in her ears. Thankfully, her ears looked perfect and he decided not to do either of these procedures.

As for her throat, approximately half her vocal cords had joined together again (caused by the scar tissue from the previous surgery). However he felt that the scar tissue was thin enough and has tried to separate them using a laser. However this means that Becca has to go back in for the same procedure in about 2 - 3 weeks. After the next surgery, we will know if it is going to be possible to strengthen her voice purely via the laser surgery, or if more drastic measures will be required.

You will all no doubt be pleased to hear that Becca seems fine after her surgery though. She was very tired afterwards (as expected), however after a good nap she was up and playing. Although she did seem to go through energetic phases and tired phases, however we are hoping she will back to her usual self tomorrow. As you have probably realised by now, the doctor decided to keep Becca in overnight for observation. Hopefully she’ll get home tomorrow.

On the other hand, Eilidh has had apparently had a great day. She has been out all day with her Auntie Stephanie, and has been the perfect angel. She was even fast a sleep by the time I got home from the hospital! I’m glad one of us had fun today!

I still feel like im buzzing after the news , i had not admitted to anyone just how much i really wanted a boy. To scared of it being a girl and people thinking i would not have loved her. Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments and it looks like the majority of you guessed right on the poll. I will draw the winning name later in the week, just want to get the surgery over and done with first.

The scan was just amazing, she started and almost straight away said its a boy as she pointed out the parts. From that moment i was in shock and had to fight to hold back the tears (i do think a couple escaped).  She switched to 4d for a couple of moments which was wonderful as we didn’t expect it. Seeing this in real life is so different that seeing it online or in pictures and was something i will never forget.  The picture was so clear and everything could be seen  just as looking at a video. We see the legs moving and  the toes wiggling about , watched him try to get his thumb in his mouth and yes got a very clear shot of the boys parts. There is no denying he is ALL MALE. (Think it makes so much sense to switch to 4d if they can just to make sure , you could not be mistaken then).

Afterwards i stopped myself shaking and smiling just enough to call the family and spread the good news. Everyone was thrilled for us , i get to give my dad his first grandson and my gran her first great grandson which is really special to me.

I still want to cry thinking about it, i keep using all the male words i can you know like ” son, he, him, his ” just to truly get my head around it. I have never imagined myself as the mother of a son but now cannot wait. I know its going to be so different but i look forward to the challenges.

Part of me also loves the idea that having a boy will not make Eilidh just the “middle child” . Rebecca will still get to be my first, my big wonderful girl and Eilidh gets to be my baby, my youngest girl. The boy gets to me my baby boy.  Now if we could solve the name problem life would be perfect.

Now as Craig predicted finding out today worked out perfectly and i have spent most of the day stupidly happy rather than moping about tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong im terrified and my stomach feels like lead but im not focusing on it and nothing else. Its going to be a busy day as we have to be at the hospital for 8am which means leaving the house around 6.30 *Yawn*.  I have asked Craig to do a blog post for me if we don’t make it home tomorrow night just to let everybody know how it went , hopefully he will remember.

Now im going for a nice long bath and i imagine will spend more time imagining my son and how he will complete my family

Its a BOY

Im shocked, happy and cannot stop smiling. Cannot beleive we are having a son.

Will write more later but on the go just now. :)

I have been in such a blah mood all day, all i could think was in so many hours i should of been getting my scan. Then of course it was i should of had it by now….

I know im being silly and there is much more important things in life but dammit i am a hormonal pregnant lady and i had been looking forward to this all week. I actually woke this morning feeling almost optimistic as they were not the only scanning place nearby just maybe someone else could squeeze me in today .  Of course things rarely work out that well but i did manage to get an appointment for 10am Monday morning.

DH pointed out Monday may even be better, its the day before Rebecca’s surgery and instead of spending all day worrying will have that to look forward to and will hopefully be all happy and excited after finding out thus passing some time.

I don’t remember feeling this stressed about finding out the previous times , i do wonder if its because i feel this is the last? Every other time the sex didn’t matter as there would be another chance for the boy.

I guess that is what it boils down to , i would love a son. I would love to be the mother of a boy and discover all the joys that come with that. If the baby is a girl i will be thrilled, what more could i ask for than three little princesses ?  There would be no disappointment in a girl but i would still have to mourn the little boy i will never have.

I’m just going to try and keep busy the next few days, the homebirth support group tomorrow and Courtney’s school fair (well Rebecca’s to as the playgroup is also trying to raise money for the end of term trip) on Saturday. Sunday is big clean day and Courts is coming for a sleepover so hopefully the time will pass quickly . Oh wait am i not  wanting it to drag in as im dreading Tuesday?

Think im confusing myself now

(Oh and to top off the day our freaking tv will not turn on, i wish i could be one of those people saying ah no big deal. But it is  BIG DEAL AND I WANT MY TV BACK .

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I have had my evening planned all day, my computer is causing me nothing but problems these days and the format and reinstall of windows the other day has done nothing to help - all i had on hand was Service Pack 3 and it just doesn’t get along with my computer. I cannot send emails using outlook using it and its driving me nuts , so tonight i was going to format again and install Windows Xp Service Pack 2.

While the computer was formatting i was planning to write a nice long blog post about the last few days and then spend some time catching up on blog reading and commenting.

Its been one thing after another (such as the disk not working right and not been able to transfer files over to DHs computer ) and its now 8.30 and im just to tired and annoyed to even care.

Thats not my biggest disappointment , the people from the scanning place called about an hour ago to cancel tomorrow. I have more or less been in tears over it, i *know* its silly but i just was so excited about it. Im so nervous over Rebecca’s hospital appointment next week that this was all that was keeping me going.
The sonographer is off sick, which straight away just bugs me - i mean its a BABY SCANNING PLACE , the whole point is to scan babies and they only have one person who can do that? Freaking stupid if you ask me.
They did offer me another appointment at 5.40pm Friday (but warned she still may be ill) well i cannot make it then as Craig is working and not only does he want to be there but i have no way of getting there with out him (not fancying bus-ing it with the kids when its bed/dinner time).
They could also offer me 12.40 on Tuesday the day of Rebecca’s surgery.
Basically its rescheduled for a week tomorrow at 3pm .

There is another one in Glasgow, im going to give them a call first thing tomorrow and see if there is any way i can be fitted in that day or Friday maybe. I just don’t want to wait another week

Its good to get it out, its been such a nice week aswell and the scan was the icing on the cake for me.

Craig is now all done with exams and we can finally spend some family time together, we took full advantage of it yesterday and spent the whole day out and about. I took the kids to rhyme time at the library then Craig took us for lunch and swimming.
We all had a blast and of course everyone was shattered.

Eilidh was apparently really tired out (as we never made it home for nap) , i went to check on her this morning at around 7.15 as i had not heard the slightest bit of noise from her all night long (it had been over 12 hours at this point). I think i woke her up as she demanded out the cot .
Of course the minute we got through the living room she lay down and went back to sleep, trying to put her back in the cot didn’t work so she slept on the couch till 8.30 when the smell of toast woke her up.
Come 10am i tried naptime not expecting her to go, she took a long breastfeed (about 10 minutes, which is about 10 times longer than normal) and fell asleep in my arms . I had to wake her at 12.30 as Rebecca had playgroup.
She even took a 15/20 minutes afternoon nap in the car.
And come bedtime? She passed straight out.

I am hoping it was just the chaos of yesterday that has made her so sleepy and she is not coming down with anything, possibly a growth spurt? Hard to tell as she always eats loads.

- Now there should me more but seriously i HATE MY COMPUTER and cannot be bothered retyping it again. (As if shut itself down mid type)